There are too many considerations you are currently taking into account and the more you think about them, the more you self-sabotage. If you want it, just take it. After all, this is your moment to grab what you can. If you chase dreams, you will live them. If you chase security as comfort, not happiness, then that is what you live. Choose wisely.
I think of horoscopes as little pokes to make you think not a law that must be followed but every once in a while they really hit home for me. I’ve always had the bad habit of self-sabotage or ‘preventive’ care of self. You know preventive ‘break up’ (keep him from dumping me I dump first .. HA) or preventive ‘job rejection’ no point in even sending my resume .. I’m not smart enough, well educated or just ‘enough’ for them to even look at my resume.
Over the years my protective habit of self-sabotage has kept me from a LOT of happiness! But over the past four years I’ve been really focusing on being more confident, liking myself and forcing myself to at least try. What has always left me most disappointed wasn’t failing but that I didn’t even try …
It’s a lesson I learn every time I hit my crossfit gym Pink Iron. I’ll say that I can’t do that exercise and the trainers will say ‘Cherry you gotta try at least one and if you need to I’ll modify it for you’ but as time goes on I realize that yes I can do it! So you just have to go for it!